August 25, 2020 - Meeting With A Neurologist

Today I met with a neurologist. I have never met a neurosurgeon or a neurologist until all this started. The neurologist did some strange tests. He asked me to push and pull his hands, tested my strength, looked at my eyes which blinded me, and held this vibrating fork against different parts of my legs and arms.

The neurologist told me it's definitely not a tumor or cancer and that they really do think it's a demyelinating disease. They are leaning towards MS but want me to do a lumbar puncture to be absolutely certain.

The neurosurgeon came in and told me what a lumbar puncture was and how they performed them. She asked if I wanted to lay down and she could visually show me what they were going to do. She told me that sometimes you can get a bad headache after and to just drink lots of water and lay flat. I told her that I didn't need her to show me, I understood.

Kurt and I were kind of thrown. We didn't know what to say, what to ask, or really anything. I won't know until I get home and look into it.

Once we got to the car my head kinda spun with the thought that I could have Multiple Sclerosis. I thought. “THIS IS CRAZY. IT DOESN'T MAKE SENSE. THIS IS SO FUCKED UP.”

I need a drink or 100 drinks. I thought MS was rare? WTF

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