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Dr. Burt's Clinical Trial for RRMS Part 3

I feel like a bomb just fell on my head. I just talked to Dr. Burt's nurse who told me that Dr. Burt doesn't think I would be a candidate after all. I cried. I am devastated and just feel beyond defeated. I will just have to try Mavenclad and if that doesn't work I will go down to Mexico and get HSCT there. Tonight, I give up though. I just don't understand. He still wants to consult with me. I told her that his time is valuable and that if someone qualifies for his trial then I don't want to take up any more of his time. His time is precious, especially to someone worse off than I am. She insisted that I meet with him and talked me into it with a virtual appointment. Even the word deflated is an understatement of how I feel. I feel absolutely gutted and bled out and tomorrow is my birthday.  😞😭

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