August 28, 2021 - 12:15 AM

12:15 AM

I just had a spasm. No one's awake. They seem to be getting worse and worse for my face. This one felt like if I opened my mouth it would pull my jaw apart or dislocate it and if I shut my mouth ,I had a difficult time breathing because my lips were shut tight together. I'm starting to get scared of these spasms. They really suck and I don't even know if the medication is working. It's really wearing me down and the spasms pick the perfect time to attack. It's always when I'm least expecting it and it creeps up on me taking me by surprise.

I now understand why my shoulders are so sore. It's practically ripping my arm out of the socket. I'm so tired of this. I'm tired of all of this. When will it stop.

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